the view from here

I hadn't realized what I was really doing with my life until today.

Beside my driveway sits an old fence. Really old. Falling half-way down old. Painted a colour that the trim on this house hasn't been for many many many years (I'm guessing). The fence is being pushed in all directions from the living things growing beside it. Its being pulled in opposite directions by gravity. Its perilously perched on the border of our property, and mostly is just there these days for appearance's sake. Many times the subject of our fence has come up on conversations of 'what do we tackle next' at home. (Sadly for the fence) it always seems to end up at the bottom of the 'to do' pile.

Today it looks different to me. It looks like home. Like a place I have been spending my life on of late.

I've discovered I've become a fence sitter. In many ways. MANY ways.

I discovered a new blog today {insert sarcastic gasp!} and it hit me like a freight train. This woman writes for me. From the comfort of her Montreal home, she is writing for me. ABOUT ME. About my life's recent perspective.

From the perch of my rickety old falling down cozy looking fence.

And now I must read her blog to figure out what the hell I'm doing there. And if I have what it takes right now to get off. Or if I'll sit for a while longer and get off in baby steps.

All I know is the view from here is too comfy. Too staid. Too fixed. Need to get me some discomfort (the good kind), some passion, some variety.

Need to mix it up a bit. Hmph... cozy fence begone...

under the truck

hope to return soon. been fighting niggling illness on and off for almost two weeks now. blech!

on a roll

With this . And then I read my horoscope today:

'A creative project will start to come right today and you will be delighted to have something to show for your efforts. But don't stop there. Now you've got the momentum going you must keep it going. What's your next target?'

ooooh I LOVE IT when the planets align!

10-10-10

Yesterday I completed my second half marathon. Eight years and one day after the first. Walked it for the most part this time, but the effort was all the same. The aches and pains (and blisters) yesterday and today are evidence of the hard work, the fun, the comaraderie of my walking gals, and the incredible feeling that I did something I didn't think I would ever do again.

Cornered

Its Friday. Even when I'm feeling a bit funny on the inside, there is an added spring to my step when I fully awaken to the realization that its Friday. My favorite day of the week. The day of the week that may start off in regular getting-ready-for-school chaos, but ends in my favorite spot in the house.

And I think we may spark our first fire of fall tonight. With my fam. All cuddled together in my corner.

chillin.

cuddlin.

cause Dude, its Friday.

xxxx

The warmth of a vent

I've been holding out, but at long last, this morning I finally let the furnace do its thing. I let it run. For many months I've had the furnace set at 15 degrees celsuis, knowing it would take a MIGHTY cold morning for it to kick in... and well... this morning I decided that 17.5 degrees was a bit too chilly for my 5:45am rise.

So the fuel company will start making its money from us again. The anticipation of warmth blowing out the vents will punctuate our days. Our daughter will begin seeking the warmest vent to warm her bones.

But hey... its October 6th. I've held out, but now the chill of fall is here and I'm ready to welcome it.

A.D.D.

I think if I wasn't such a quiet kid, I would have gotten into a lot of trouble. Or maybe I wasn't really like this as a child, but as an adult, I think I definitely suffer from A.D.D. My attention to things isn't what it used to be, and with so many things I want to do/try, projects I want to tackle/complete, things I want to see, people I want to meet/know, I feel like there isn't enough time in this one lifetime to do it all.

Do you feel frustrated too?

What's a gal to do?

I know... FOCUS. Its hard though. Just get 'er started. Get 'er done. Hard to.

For instance, these are the things that interest me, but how do I prioritize? Where do I find the time, while not robbing my precious sleep?

this intrigues me
so does this
and this
and i'm now reading this and want to do it all in there
and this weighs on my mind
and then there's this too....

Not to mention the things I need to finish, attend to, love, honour and maintain.

Really now... I ask again... what's a gal to do?